Never Alone

As I was growing up, in a family of ten siblings, there seemed to be a lot going on all the time. Only four of us were still at home by the time I was born, but that was enough to bring a lot of hustle and bustle, as well as fighting, fussing, and chaos among us kids. Sometimes my older siblings would visit and bring all their children and add to the already busy house. Many of my nieces and nephews were my age or close to my age, we had lots of fun playing, running, and sometimes fighting. And yet I often felt devastatingly lonely. This kind of loneliness makes your heart feel empty and hollow. There was this dark and dismal dull aching that never goes away. At other times the ache became so strong, it was almost piercing, and I didn’t understand why with so many people around I felt so alone. The emptiness in my heart left me with this desperate longing for something, anything to fill it.

I tried hard to fill that ever-growing void in my heart, albeit unsuccessfully, with everything I could think of. I tried following the “in crowd” and dabbled with cigarettes and marijuana. I drank alcohol until I passed out. But nothing worked. I was trying to fit things in an empty spot that could only be filled by God. The day that God found me and filled me with the Holy Ghost was both an amazing and somewhat terrifying day. To think that the God who created the universe, and all the things in it, was now going to be with me, in my heart, forever. Never again would I be alone or lonely. He, the almighty God of Heaven and earth would be my comforter, my strength, my everything. The day I stepped into a truth teaching and Bible preaching church was the best day of my life. When I learned there was a plan for salvation, I jumped in with both feet and I will never regret that decision. Repentance, baptism in the beautiful name of Jesus Christ as the Bible says, and the infilling of the Holy Ghost became my goal. I have found a treasure in Him and in His word, a precious treasure that no one can take away from me, and I will not give up for anything in the world. God had a plan for my life. He has a plan for your life too.

Psalms 27:10

John 14:18

Acts 2:38

Jeremiah 29:11